Help!!

It has been 3 days since my back muscle ached. It's getting worse and now i can feel that it radiates to the front muscle. It hurts when i walk, stand, lean forward, raise my hand or leg, turn sideway, laugh and even take a deep breath. I have tried every possible way like putting a hot towel,lying down on the unaffected side, sticking salonpas, putting injury gel n taking analgesic to relieve pain but none of them seems to work...cant help wondering if it's simply muscle pain or something else which i dare not imagine. If to live is to suffer i really wish i was never born..*sob*

life sucks when...

life sucks when u have...

an unspeakable secret,
an irreversible regret,
an unreachable dream,
an unforgettable love,
an unforgivable mistake,
an inevitable fear,
an incurable obsession,
an unconcealable weakness,
an irrecoverable wound,
an inexorable pain,
an unsettleable inner conflict,
an unbreakable wall lying within

sigh....been bothered by all these daunting thoughts lately...
wonder where the strength to fight them off has gone...
a friend of mine ever said
''believe that life is worth living and your belief will help conspire to create the fact''
nothing is easier than self-deceit
but the question is
will i be truly happy if i know what i believe in is actually a made-believe??