Tuesday 31 March 2009

One last dream

''It's nice to get away. I bet you can't wait,'' my patient replied after i told him that i was going home for 2 weeks

''Yeah......hmm,'' i paused, hesitating to elaborate on it

all of a sudden, a mixture of feelings hit me

how wonderful to have 2 weeks off from uncompleted work, lifeless clinics and the distressing, seemingly never-ending requirements

but

what happens after 2 weeks?

can i still be on the run?

that's when excitement fades out, eaten away in parts by horror, stress, insecurity, remorse.....

If there is one thing i believe in m horoscope, it's escapism

for years and years, i've been relying on it to cope with my problems
i know it's gotta come to an end someday
i know that one day it's no more a solution to everything.
i know i know....

but please let me run away from it all

just this one time

3 comments:

melwy said...

enjoy ur runaway then :)
take it as a short break for u to top-up urself, come back here strive again, with more energy and determination!
p/s: by the way i stil duno why u going back...

ashieBee said...

easter break maaaaa, melissa ;))

amoiiiii!!!! i feel like squeezing myself into your luggage and naik flight wif uuuuu. blerghh. jealous. and sad!!!im gonna be flat-alone next week. pffffftttttttt.

me gonna miss u! have easter, babe **hugs**

h.3.l.3.n said...

awww poor ash!

u cant runaway forever, ahui. life on the run isnt very meaningful either, just need a fair balance of short breaks + hectic life so u can appreciate ur runaways better and u r all geared up for hectic life!

enjoy ur trip in msia! i'll misss u lotzzz!! muaz!!